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10 things that make me happy

Jul. 4th, 2016 | 09:39 pm

Thanks to @demonessryu for tagging me! It took me a while, I just don't like writing about myself these days. So:

  1. I am employed! I like the company and the people and my job pretty well.

  2. I really like getting paid

  3. I get to ride a train to work, and I still love trains! It's not a perfect solution, but I would literally die if I had to drive. I'm working at home a couple of days a week as well. We'll see what happens when it gets dark at 4:30

  4. My daughter, who is showing me the Big Fat Quiz of Everything at the moment and generally being wonderful. And a family that watches Granada Jeremy Brett Sherlock Holmes together...

  5. My little house, which is cluttered, but still has high ceilings and lots of windows and green outside, and feels good.

  6. Good food: chocolate, Dungeness Crab, stone fruit esp. cherries and peaches, a perfect roast chicken, sushi, artisan bread, channa masala

  7. The weather is mostly mild and foggy in the mornings, sunny during the afternoons. My work is further inland but they have AC, as does the train.

  8. Fandom friends old and new, and art and fic with so much happy smut! And angsty epics and confusing wonderful fics and crossovers galore.

  9. Aidan Turner and Dean O'Gorman and Graham McTavish going to conventions (sadly, not the same ones) and still enjoying the fan love

  10. The color green, specifically dark emerald green.  


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TV binge watching in progress

Mar. 10th, 2016 | 03:00 pm

  • Orange is the New Black - in small doses, it's really intense and reminds me about the failures of our society
  • Call the Midwife - I liked that jenny didn't fall in love with the guy who pursues her, and she did break up with the married guy.  It's an interesting combination of romance, religion and gritty reality, and the screaming labor is always
  • MASH - We used to watch it every week, when it was a contemporary answer to the Vietnam War, it's weird seeing the period from so far away. Parts of it have aged better than others, the sexism is gross but Larry Linville is oddly attractive at times.
  • Almighty Johnsons - Such weird show, but I like it a lot, and my fave Dean O'Gorman is very fun to watch.  It starts off very male but gets more balanced and has truly unexpected plot twists.  The Axl/Helen bodyswap episode is bizarrely  funny and memorable and the Gin Wigmore soundtrack is great.
  • Tried Silver Linings Playbook and was bored out of my skull.
  • The West Wing - girlchild adores it, the crackly dialog, she has no idea what a great fantasy that was during the Bush administration
Amazon Prime (they are losing money on us, heh)
  • Dancing on the Edge- Jazz musicians in 1930s England - we finished this one, Angel Coulby & Chiwetel Ejiofor were good, but the plot was a gigantic mess and not much was resolved.  Loved Wunmi Mosaku as the backup singer who comes into her own.
  • Borgia - parts of it work for me, some of the costumes are spectacular, but there's way too much exposition, Cesare looks and acts like a young Sean Penn, and Pope Alexander with a New York accent is just jarring.
  • The Americans - girlchild likes it, I'm not entirely sure. 
  • VEEP - just starting this, so far not too much embarrassment humor
  • Mozart in the Jungle - all of them have interesting flaws, and there's a certain schadenfreude in seeing beautiful people in imperfect lives.
acorn.tv (I got a 3 month sub to try it out)
  • Poldark - Aidan Turner acting moody and shirtless, also pretty costumes, pretty Cornwall, OTT plot...
  • The Blue Rose - a temp and her friends fighting corruption in New Zealand, with a bit by Mark Ferguson
  • Falcón - Spanish police detective in Seviille, actors include Marton Csokas, Hayey Atwell, Santiego Cabera, all looking gorgeous
  • The Clinic - Irish medical clinic soap opera, nicely done, eventually will have a young Aidan Turner as the receptionist
  • Partners in Crime - Agatha Christie's Tommy and Tuppence, looking forward to that!
Other means
  • Underground (WGN) the trailer looks good, and I was annoyed with Turn for so little Aldus Hodge, and I hope it's a great story of slaves freeing themselves
  • Agent Carter - bought season 1 on itunes, and probably will get the second one for female friendship if nothing else


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TV binge watched

Mar. 9th, 2016 | 11:59 pm

Now I'm unemployed, I'm watching more TV, any recs or anyone want to talk?
  • Sense8 - Intriguing, didn't get they were all the same age till the end, loved the orgy in the pool (LOVED it), Freema Agyman!, had some issues with the intense violence and bringing a rocket launcher to a gun fight aspect, glad the manic pixie dream girl got to save the day, though it would have been nice not to fade to black while she did it

  • Jessica Jones - noir tropes, revisited. Her agency is magnificent by the end, and Luke Cage, rowr

  • Daredevil - during the gratuitous violence, I played Torus (Tetris in a circle). I do like an evil mastermind who loves his mother.

  • Top of the Lake - avoided a lot of clichés and reveled in some of the others (the female hippie commune). I liked Elisabeth Moss a lot. The middle kept me guessing but the end was pretty formulaic, not much mystery.

  • How To Get Away With Murder - I like the ensemble and the way the characters got revealed, even the frat-boy-type has some redeeming characteristics. And the plot unfolding as well. I hate the fraughtness of the whole thing, every episode threatens them all existentially, I get bored after a while.


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that Delicious spam "Meet TulaCo" is an ad

Feb. 18th, 2016 | 10:56 am

My ancient Delicious feeds all blurted out this bizarre entry about Meet TulaCo. Turns out that "Sponsored" means advertising and they inserted it into the RSS of all Delicious accounts. Blrgh. It did remind me to change my password to something long and random.


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fannish stuff

Jan. 30th, 2016 | 04:51 pm


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I don't think I've ever posted an end of year review. here goes.

Jan. 2nd, 2016 | 12:00 am

In 2015

1. What did you do in 2015 that you'd never done before?
- worked my ass off on a high-profile project
- burned out
- made mistakes
- got fired

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
- try to see the big picture
- get out of the chair, away from the laptop, do something

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
nope, though a couple of fandom friends had babies, it's been fun watching her their posts. Some of my friends are now grandmothers.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
I don't think so

5. What did you do with your annual leave / vacation time?
Recuperated from being fired (I had 4 weeks vacation accumulated)

6. What would you like to have in 2016 that you lacked in 2015?
Motivation, context, control

7. What dates from 2015 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
- The day the big project went live.
- The day I lost my job

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
- Discovering I could work 11 hour days and produce enough stuff
- making a Halloween costume for my daughter
- Going to almost all my daughter's performances

9. What was your biggest disappointment?
- Myself for focusing on the immediate work and not the long-term needs

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Depression the whole time, a bout of bad anxiety when starting job-hunting

11. What was your money strategy this year?
"Keep on top of things". I did that most of the year, filed taxes on time etc. I still need to see someone about investing in an annuity.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Black Lives Matter activists

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
My son, who has lots of excuses but is still sitting on his ass most days. He needs to make changes and grow up. I hate to say it, but when I was his age, I was enjoying the university a lot, had gone places and done stuff, was self-supporting (grants and parents) and engaged to my dear Ed.

And that the Republican Party voters are such idiotic asshats who are telling pollsters they'd vote for Trump or Carson -- who couldn't president themselves out of a paper bag!

14. Where did most of your money go?
Groceries for four, books and videos, car repair & insurance, home insurance, property tax, savings, getting the house re-shingled and painted, (halfway done!), non-profit donations

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
- My daughter going to China on a study tour.
- My job for a while.

16. Did you get excited about any art/culture this year?
Hobbit fix-it fic has been excellent

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? sadder
b) thinner or fatter? the same
c) richer or poorer? richer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Taking advantage of where I live and that I have enough money to do stuff (My depression & anhedonia are like a gravitational pull away from me even going out the door.)

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Sitting on my ass

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
We always go up to see my sister-in-law in Chico and chill out. We should sing some carols next year.

We also had Hannukah at our house with lots of latkes and presents and stuff. Just us, my mom, my brother and his wife, lots of laughs. My mom would love us to sing more.

And the Persian Yalda (midwinter) celebration was nice, interesting people to talk with, girl danced with the adult classes for the first time.

21. What relationships stand out in your memory this year?
- It hurts too much to think about the people at my old company
- My mom, who broke her hip in January and was walking by June. She did great and I did well in taking care of her.

22. What was your favourite TV program?
Miss Phryne Fisher!

23. Did you undertake any creative projects or adventures?
Not really. I went to Costa Rica with my old company which was exhilarating at the time, but really painful in retrospect.

24. What did you want and get?
- A reasonably calm year as a parent of a teen
- Six months of a good job.

25. What did you want and not get?
- the other six months of a good job
- son to make some progress in life

26. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
We went to one of my favorite restaurants, the food was excellent and my son loved it, it was really nice to bond over something. I am 55.

My mom broke her hip the next day.

27. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
A chance to fix my mistakes.

28. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2014?
Jeans, because everyone at the office wore (expensive, tidy) jeans.

29. What kept you sane?
My husband, our sweet little house, all of my corner of fandom

30. Who did you miss?
My dad, always. Some of my old friends I've lost touch with. Some cousins.

31. Who was the best new person you met?
A bunch of lovely folks in Hobbit fandoms, especially http://demonessryu.tumblr.com

32. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2015
Always step back, see the big picture, ask dumb questions, require management to define benefits vs costs vs timing before agreeing to projects

33. Something new that worked out really well for you during the year?
My daughter's mostly-undramatic progress through high school. Second semester of AP Chem looms over us.

34. Most useful piece of advice or comment I received:
Don't burn out

35. What personal motto has emerged from this year for you?
"Think before you agree"

36. What are your plans for 2016?
Two of my Best Fandom Friends from the ooooold days of 2003-4 LotRPS, [personal profile] hanarobi and mirabile_dictu are coming here for MY birthday! No one has ever done that before for me. I'm all melty-happy about it.


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Hobbit Big Bang challenge 2015-16

Nov. 22nd, 2015 | 09:58 am

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love in the Hobbit fandom (PSDM)

Sep. 7th, 2015 | 12:45 pm

So, DragonCon, I am not there which is fine because I dislike heat, noise, and crowds.

But it's fun to watch the love-fest between fans and Dean O'Gorman (who played Fili in the Hobbit). He's clearly in that happy phase of genre stardom where he can be pleased by the intensity of the whole thing, and hop up on the table to take a beefcake pose for a moment before he gets a bit embarrassed and hops down again. I can't stop looking at the videos. In case you can't tell, I have a huge crush on him,. and am quite enjoying the feeling

2015-9-6 Dean Pinup Pose (screencap at Dragconon @filisleftmustachebraid).jpg

video by filisleftmustachebraid

And if anyone wants them, I have Hobbit RPF recs, frequently featuring the lovely Mr. O'Gorman.

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Fic rec: Loaded March (Merlin/Arthur, modern AU)

Sep. 5th, 2015 | 02:19 pm

Fic rec: the series Loaded March, a modern BBC Merlin AU, 1.2 million words of plot, action, violence, zombies, dragons, military internal politics, political intrigue, teamwork, hot sex and true love. (Merlin/Arthur)

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Jun. 27th, 2015 | 01:17 pm

George Takai from yesterday: "When I checked Twitter this morning #LoveWins"

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